25:10:2023

I have learnt to be present in my emotions.Taught myself to listen to my body,the changes in my psychic. It is very interesting that now I know when something changes.Like today, I don't feel whole, something is off, really really off.I have thought about it, listened to exact time in which my mood changed.It is a very trying space to be in because it gives me the power to change it.The reality is there things I don't need to change,I need to feel the pain,to experience the consequences of my feelings.I have to go through them to heal them and in being in such a space is really interesting.Knowing that you can change it but living is necessary for growth.

Most of us spend our lives running from our feelings,we run for the things that make us feel.We do everything we can not be powerless,we use every avenue we have to ensure we have control.Yet control is what messes us up,it is what takes away our ability to deal with our pain,our traumas.Control takes away from our ability to enjoy our wins,to feel our joy,to celebrate the things we have worked so hard to achieve.Instead of being present in the moment we try so hard to keep the factors constant.