The realities of living

Everyone will tell you to take a step of faith.They will tell you to keep trying and not give up.What they will not tell you is ,it will hurt like hell.It will be scary and for the most part you will have nothing to show for it.So you will drown soo deep it will scare you to swim.And when you have drowned to the bottom no one will be there with you.Then you will remember that there is a God and so you call him.As soon as you say it out loud ,it all starts to fall in place.The beauty of everything starts to show and it is in that moment that you know ,all you needed to do is ask. So hold on a little bit longer and when you are ready all you need to do is ask.

The realities of living

Maybe it's meant to be,that you break your soul before you can grow with it

That you fall way below the bottom of the sea before you can aim at the sky

Maybe you are meant to experience the painful lessons

That make you question the meaning of life as a whole

Maybe that pain Is meant to teach you something

That choices have consequences no matter how long it takes

What I know for a fact is that you are unique in your ways

You are different in a specific special way and that is a wonder

What I question is how people change their true self when they get hurt

You may not have been good enough for them but thats who you are

What I ask is,when you change to be someone you aren't who does it hurt?

You become someone you are not to prove a point to people who already left

Realities of living

I would be really scared if someone stayed the same as days go by.Like what do you mean you are the same person you were six months ago.You mean nothing has changed at all,that has to be really scary..Like not even a single thing has influenced you to grow or to unlearn one or two things?Okay say you may not change much but still you can't not change at all.People who stay exactly the same are robots and those things don't even have feelings.Which means you are disconnected from your own life.While it is happening you are staying in a program like you have boxed yourself. People who compartmentalize like that are unhealthy mentally.Everyday something happens, it can be really small but it does have an impact.It affects who you are and in one way or another changes you.The ability to ignore everyday events is really wild.I would rather someone loses a part of themselves and than stay exactly the same.

From the mouth of babes

My child has an infection.Its minor, however she needed mediation so I got her some.They don't taste so well because it's medicine.This morning am giving her a dose and she is whispering something."I am brave, I am brave". I am marvelling at the way she is calm saying it and takes the medicine without cringing.In that moment I realize something really interesting about our existence.

She knew what it tasted like,she knew she didn't like it and so she was prepared.She found a way to calm herself through that. Reminded herself that she could do it and then she did.The power of the human mind.

I want to borrow this phenomenal way if dealing with everyday. Life changes everyday,we know it's not easy.We know that it's not predictable,we even know what is likely to be difficult.From this amazing tiny human we can learn to accept that we still have to live it.We can learn that we need to be ready for the tough times and so we speak power to our situation.Remind ourselves that we are brave,that we are strong enough to deal.Yes it's Monday,there's a bad taste in your mouth because it's not going exactly how you want.But you are brave and you can do this.

The ideology that you have done it before,got through worse, conquered tougher time is enough.Its enough for you to know that one more dose and you are closer to the goal.One more step of you being brave and you get closer to making it.

No man is an island and we all need someone in our lives.It can be a tiny human reminding us to brave our fears.Showing us in her small way that if she can get through a bad taste then we can get through adulting.

Happy week ahead,may your blessings locate you at the point of your need.

The healing process

One day you are young ,with all your dreams intact.You are ready to face the world and conquer it.The next you are an adult with experiences that you don't even know how you survived.You are almost sure that they could have killed you but you are still here.So you wake up and try again.This time with measures to protect yourself.The irony is you will not know when your walls will come down again. All you can do is ask God to give you a safe space,so when your walls come down you will experience divine living.You will live in the joys of life and it's abundance.That you will smile again and that no matter what your tears will not flow unless they are tears of joy.
However for you to get to this space you need to have healed.You need to be free from all the trauma,all the pain ,all the triggers.You need to have accepted your mistakes,the things that you contributed to your good and bad times. Wear your scars with honor so that when you rise you can grow above the stigma,the shame the trigger and all remainders of what was.

She

She looks in the mirror
All she can see is fear
Maybe mirror is broken
Or her strength is shaken

She reaches for the sky
With the hopes to try
But her hands fall down
No strength to hold on